Dilemma

That's what I have. A blogging dilemma. To blog or not to blog... I started this about a year ago, at the prodding of a couple of friends. Sometimes it has been enjoyable. But other times it just becomes frustrating to me. Lately, I find myself asking more and more "Does anyone really care?" I mean, really, is anyone but me REALLY interested in what my kids did last week? Of course I know Kearsdad is, but then he already knows. So what good does it do me to blog it?

One of the things I told myself when I began was that blogging would give me a way to keep far away friends up to date on my family. However, I am almost positive that none of those friends EVER look at my blog. If they do, I am not aware of it. I didn't share this blog with family, but started a separate on for them. I posted two, maybe three, times. Then I realized that they were completely uninterested in it. I made it a "private blog" so that I could use real names and such. My uncle proclaimed it was too much trouble to register with Google so he could access the blog. My mother looked once or twice, but only with major help from me over the phone which took way too much time. It's easier to just email her pictures. I think my father-in-law looked one time, then forgot to tell my mother-in-law about it. She never looks at the computer anyway. My sister-in-law and brother admitted to never looking at it. I think I'm just going to shut that blog down. Obviously none of the people it was intended for are interested.

I suppose that is where my frustration comes in. I take it too personally.

So...I've had a few hours to think about this post. Here's what I decided. I have been writing since I was in 4th grade. It's very therapeutic for me and I enjoy it. Until this blog, only a handful of people were ever aloud to see anything I had written-my husband, my mother when I was younger, my dear friend who passed away last week, and a few other teachers. Now, my writing is out there for the world to see. If anyone chooses to read, that's great. If they choose to comment, even better. But I will continue to write anyway, because I like to. And this is a great forum to be creative.